#Thirtyfour

-  Allow me to preface, today I am grateful. Today I am happy. Today my then is not my now.  The words I share are my thoughts , and or experiences , that I speak into the air only for therapeutic cause  - it’s my method of healing and letting go.  That being said,  I assure you I am safe and sound and sitting in gratitude.  -

There is magic in the fact that I am able to have celebrated my 39 years on this earth.  Though I have been blessed with the opportunities to have lived many lives , way to many then I deserved , and for all of them and the experiences in the , good or bad, I thank the universe.  Now that being said, I strongly believe I have used up all but one of my cat lives, and that one cat life is ready to be lived... truly lived. Just Surviving isn’t a way to utilize your space on the earth , and I can proudly say that Yes I have move mountains and contributed creativity and love into the universe but I can say that I have also wasted  space at times, especially while I was in my darkness, space that could have appreciated by those whom have lost the fight while wishing every second they could out run it. 

So here I am today, in my now, ready to take all that I have. The good the bad , the lessons and achievements, the errors and the results, the epic and misery, the fearlessness and the fearful - it’s time to take all that with me on this path and be the man can conquer and can finally say that I finally believe that I can, again.  But also stand accepting my then is my then and trying to recreate my successes or my milestones is not only an unrealistic attempt but quite pathetic.  I am more then over the mood to have had but now it’s time for new goals, new adventures, new present , loved nows.