#Thirty

Allow me to preface, today I am grateful. Today I am happy. Today my then is not my now.  The words I share are my thoughts , and or experiences , that I speak into the air only for therapeutic cause. If it’s spoke though literal words, video , or photography - it’s my method of healing and letting go.  That being said,  I assure you I am safe and sound and sitting in gratitude.  

There is a disconnect in us when it comes to understanding.  When you are in your darkness - people leave. Those whom are assumed to always stay - actually slowly begin to step away.  Why?

And if you those people who see someone you love slowly there eventually through their hands up, you ask yourself why  are they doing that ?

Speaking from my experiences we have to see all sides. The perspective of the loved ones and the friends who have to step away from their love own who is slowly killing themselves. That person Who stoped trying to , ultimately, live. 

But the perspective of the individual in their darkness is scared, already embarrassed and lost in their shame, to ask for help.  Maybe to far deep to even think there is a point to try.  

There are many layers to this disconnect and  it all does stem from something deeper but right maybe just try and understand what it is that both parties are going though. Each try and understand , even little , that both the loved owned and the individual who are in the darkness are both feeing their own pain in one way or another.  It’s a disconnect. 

You will never know what they other person is or has experienced unless you yourself have actual experienced the exact same thing, that obvious. But we all can each TRY. Just TRY and understand. It can save a life or help someone Finally begin living a better one.